~ Satisfying the Soul ~

Its been a long time since gulping an ice cram scoop or clearing the 8th stage of mario or getting 1st rank in the class was Satisfaction or Real Happiness for me..May be they were the definitions given to me by my world.

Time flew...my skin wrinkled...jeans got tighter.. but the definition remained the same. Now it was about clearing semester exams without a Reappear and gulping tons of beer cans after the result and lie on the football ground treating your self as God..They say it Satisfaction.

All these years these definitions were enough to trouble my thoughts.I don't feel that satisfied after the mario's end or good rank in the class.No i didnt.Happiness may had just touched me..but not my soul.May be getting a better badminton raquet to tease your good enemy or answering some challenge is enough for satisfying the Ego but Na..not for the soul.......

Each time i tasted "success"..a void was created in my life..After gulping mario..a void was created. After getting Rank in school..a void was created..after geting racing bycycle, i wanted badly, a void was created.
Every time i achieved something a void came as a gift..Is this void you call satisfaction?Is it?

I have spent some last months serving my head like anything...gulping millions of cans of fosters....buying things i had an eye on (leave those Honda Acoords and SUV's appart..)...abusing a friend to kissing an enemy to being a diplomat.I did it all what head wanted..i was reaping from my past success.When i analyse all this,the soul is still craving....yes craving for an element of satisfaction.
This is not success.This is a void.

When i assemble things, try to find the similarities between each void, i faced in my life.The satisfaction to my soul was not in getting a remote enabled car from parents after a long tantrum show in the market but it was after seeing Kunal with the GiJO Truck, it was not in completing the mario but in discovery of Contra.My soul doesnt satisfy after riding a new bike it gets its food after seeing a black Accord.
It sounds stupid to you.Isnt it? You wannna knw ,why Contra,Accord,GiJo truck is satisfaction for me..Beacuse it gives me reason to live..it helps me get out of the void that is created after achieving something ...that you call satisfaction.true happiness.

I wish gOd doesnt cater to my all wishes..and i die with some desires and dreams in my heart.For me.The pursuit of happiness is the real happiness.Satisfaction in your soul chip in the moment you get unsatisfied.

Today when i see my future life with different flavour and embed my dreams into it, i feel the the void vanishing away with the juice of satisfaction.Soul is at ease now.

M Hungry again but satisfied..After wandering all my life ..i knw nw..only my famished soul can make me content.